I need express my thoughts somehow, thus I'm posting.
I just burned my engine in the car. It was short on oil a couple of weeks ago, and I filled some oil in, but not that much. Now I had that annual christmas family meeting today, and of course I got up late after only a couple of hours sleep. Accordingly I didn't check the oil like I had planned but kicked the car across the Autobahn at 180Km/h. I was almost at my destination when the shit hit the fan: loud knocking, most likely caused by a bearing failure, somewhere inside the engine.
Called the towing service, brought it to the next dealer where the car is waiting until monday. Took me 4 hours to return home by train. I didn't even have a coat despite winter temperatures.
Most likely the engine is totally broken, at best it will be a few thousand €uros for the repair. Point is, I only have a couple of thousand €uros at best, either for the repair or a new car, and after that I'll be totally broke, despite feeling totally broke anyway already before.
Without knowing the exact amount of damage, I already tend to let them do the repairs. The car got a full service history because I already knew I couldn't afford repairs of any major damage. If I only (can) spend like 2k or 3k on a new used car, I could buy a subscription for the repair shop right away as well. Cars for 3k are just utterly crap and no gain at all.
And after all, there is nobody to blame but me. If I would have gotten up earlier (somehow, but how?), or if I would have checked the oil instead, or if I would not have driven at full throttle, if, if, if...
...then everything would be fine.
