Can somewone help me with this?

[Damaso]

Alrigth, i know this seems ridiculous, but i really need your help (and dont come tell me i need an psicologist because at this exacly moment THIS is the only thing i can do)

I was about to close the War Thunder game, and then suddently my mother cames out of nowere with my sister, and tells me my grandfather died.

(he was already heavy sick, and "lived" in a hospital, we were all waiting this)

at first i was like: "this is too much serious so it can be true" and so i was like: "what?"
she repeated it, and then i sayid: "are you serious?" because it was kinda strong, and then she leaved the room.

This happened like 4 minutes ago, and im somehow nervious.. i dont know what im feeling, because im kinda sad, but at the same time i dont cry... but is still hard to believe he is death

I mean... i will not see him anymore! and now i dont know what to do, im kinda confused with this...

I dont feel good if i just continue to have an normal behaviour - im shocked, but i dont really see what i can do now besides i continue to do the same...

My mother is cooking something, and my sister is around her - they must be sad as well, but they arent crying or having a conversation about it...

and here i am... in my computer, posting this...

i mean, what did you did wen somewone from your family died? i mean, what can i do now?
should i go there and speak with my mother?

(NOTE: last time i visited my grandphater, it was the day Paul Walker died... and so, i posted something on facebook saying this:

"My grandfather is about to die.. im about to write an huge text about it, hoewer, here are some reasons i will not:

-Nobody can read my huge text
-People are still afected with Paul Walker´s death
-Nobody cares about who gave you education"

and the problem is than somewone from my family saw that post, and there was an huge discustion over there... my mother after telling me that, she came back and asked me to not post on facebook my grandfather´s death, and she told me about the family discussion...

i think im actually screwed up for some reason, but i dont really know what to do (and no, im not even speaking about suicide, and im not trolling/joking/ect... with nobody here...)

If you can help me with this please do it (reply,message,ect...)

(and for hell sake hold your tonge if you are about to say bullshit: at least on this post.)

[luftwaffe.be]

Death is common in life. everyone and everything has to die at some point.

We in the west have forgotten that death is a part of the everyday life, probably due to being spoiled with such long life expectancy. Ofcouse the death of a family member or close friend always hurts, but keep this in mind: his time just had come.

Many people around the world never even had the chance to meet their grandparents or even their parents for that matter of fact. So consider yourself lucky you had the chance of knowing him. A friend of mine died about a year ago, and he was just 24. Can't imagine how his family feels.

Loosing your grandparents is not a nice experience, but it's one we all must take. But burring your own child is something you hope nobody will have to do.. 

[Hjaldrgud]

Turn the computer off.
Go out for a walk with a mp3 player.
Think.

[Matthew_Baker]

I wouldn't worry too much about how you're dealing with it in terms of what's "normal." Everybody deals with death differently. I remember when both my grandparents died I never actually cried until I actually got to the funeral. Sometimes it just takes some time for it to hit you. Sorry about your grandfather, and depending on your beliefs he's probably in a better place now. It's always terrible to say goodbye to someone but at least you can take comfort knowing he lived a good long life.

[Korsakov829]

Bury the dead before the heat of day, save tears for later. Always been the way with me.

There's nothing wrong with you if you don't take the news seriously at first.

[Tedacious]

Turn the computer off.
Go out for a walk with a mp3 player.
Think.

This.

I'm sorry for your loss Damaso, my grandmother died this spring, first relative of mine that died. It was quite a heavy blow on me, but that's life.

One thing: I did not sit by the computer for the rest of the day at least, just fyi. You don't necessary have to talk to your mother, or your sister. Just don't sit closed in your room. Spend time with them, be around them. It will make you feel better.

Then; take a walk, listen to music, and think. But first of all, make sure to be around family.

[THeTA0123]

Damaso

Start listening to Manowar


Stuff like this insta depressed me 3 years ago, and i had alot of shit on my mind.

But then a good FH2 member sended me this song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vaqH3v31X4w

The song that changed my life
And i got everything that i desired, minus a good girl by my side

[Turkish007]

I lost 3 of my good friends in a flood around 5 years ago, and numerous family members throughout my life. I still have the memory of the times I spent with them, and I wish all of them were alive right now. But we all know every living being will die some day.

Crying is not bad. Go meet with your mother and sister, cry it all out. Helps a lot, to release all the bunched up emotions and feelings inside.

[Dukat]

At first you don't feel anything. You knew that he would die as he was sick already. Accordingly there will be no big change in feelings until you realize the loss. As other said already, when you stand by the coffin, you might realize. Or it might take longer or shorter, maybe when you see the empty bed or the empty chair where he used to be/sit. However, it will take time.
And once you're about to realize and feel the pain your loss causes, think about how unnecessary each early death actually is, when it is caused by wars, political agendas, crimes, greed or simply madness. There are always people suffering from each death of an individual, just like you do.

[Born2Kill 007]

Well, for quite some time I thought i got as far that i thought i wouldn't be needing to cry anymore. Before a 2 months ago now, i couldn't remember when the last time was i cried, maybe it was from when i was 10 or so. People died, sad things happened, and yet i was capable of not feeling to much about it. I was glad i could ban extreme sadness out, but yet i was kinda getting scared of myself either i wasn't becoming some kind of crazy sociopath that no longer was human, but just mind. Like what they say about serial killers on tv. But then, 2 months ago, we just had a nest of so cute small cats. One of them was not doing very well, it got bad rather quick and the mother gave up on it, so we took it in and i took care of it. I did so much for that small cute cat, i spent endless time getting it to eat and drink, it was always with me when i was awake (i move in my sleep and i was afraid i could suffocate or crush it while lseeping, so i didn't put it with me in bed) so i could keep it warm enough. I shortened my nights so drastically that i even went to 3.5 hours just so i could keep it as often warm and in company so it would get better and wouldn't feel lonely. The kitten got a bit better and that hope kept me going. And then suddenly in an evening, it got worse really quickly, to the point where i just got the infraredlight and put it on it  hoping it would change something. You saw the life just getting drained out of the little cat untill it stopped giving signs of life. I left the lamp on for 5 minutes after, just to make sure if it wasn't dead already, the death would still be as comfortable as possible. I felt getting weaker, but i was still more or less ok. But then when it started shitting itself and i cleaned it up to keep the body a bit clean, i started to feel terrible, but i still had the power to focus on something differently and carry on. Then some white-yellowish slime came out of the nose (no clue what it could have been, it wasn't boogers or so) and i had to sweep it of the cute face i had cared for all that time, i felt i was on the edge. I took a break and walked away, to calm myself a bit and then the girlfriend of my brother walks in, sees my face isn't as happy as usually and asks what's wrong. That's the moment i cracked. Just the simple question "is everything alright?". I just went out and cried. It was a weird feeling. I felt weaker than i thought because i thought i was finally able to ban the extreme sadnessfeeling out and that prooved wrong, yet i was glad that i wasn't able to do it, i felt more human again.

Anyway, story short: don't feel necesarilly a creep because you can hold emotions for some time, even when you're capable of not expressing them for some time, they'll still be there and on a moment when everything combines, you'll still crack for your emotions.

I hope this helped a bit