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Re: Revolting Uniting
« Reply #5595 on: 02-10-2014, 11:10:26 »
I need to get things off my chest.

I am writing this  after a night of staying up, desperately churning out a task that I had to do for my studies (Bachelor degree in History) A horrible task of defining the differences between the family structure of European and Asian cultures vs sub-Saharan African. Sounds more like social anthropology to me, but that's not the point.

The point is that I am a slothful, undisciplined fucktard who is currently wasting his intelligence and life in favour of cheap satisfaction in the form of the computer. I have come to realize I am an computer/gaming addict of the worst kind. I am in my second year of studies and I have in that almost year-and-a-half been on maybe fifteen lectures tops. I stay up on the fucking POS computer until the first light of day hits, then wake up in the afternoon where the cycle repeats.  I need to change. Last semester I did not do anything. I didn't even show up for the exams. The pain of lying to my parents saying that the studies are going great is fucking awful, and I feel like a fucking loser. I need to change. My greatest fear is to become like my cousin who was really cool. But, even though he is exceptionally bright, he did not handle the studies and became a house occupant instead.  Now he is a NEET living in an apartment his parents gave to him and goes to a psychologist.

I was a lot of depressed in my early teenage years, because of a crush I had on a wonderful (or so I thought) girl. She was a bitch in reality and mostly used me for favors. Anyways, I lost the depression some years later when I finally came over her, but lately I have felt it coming back. I cracked down tonight in some sort of mental breakdown. I am so fucking sick and tired of this useless addiction which is holding me back from unleash my true potential. I need to stop spending 12 hours a day, often more in front of a screen.

I'm gonna change. Starting today. (At least after getting some sleep)

My battleplan:
-Start working out again. This gives me happiness and relieves stress.
-Nofap. Well, I have held out reasonably long before, and it works for me. I get much more energy and willpower out of it.
-Start going to the lectures and read the curriculum and generally start STUDYING.
-Last but not least: Stop sitting in front of the computer screen. This will be hard, but I think I have grown the willpower to actually do it after realizing and accepting I got a serious problem that I need to stop. The exception is the wonderful forgotten honor campaigns that I've signed up to. A couple of hours of training on Thursdays and battles on Friday and Saturday should be an acceptable limit of computer time in a week.


I'm going to do this. I'm not going to fail. I can't fail. I WILL change this.

To quote the the guys from Damageplan:

It's time to rip the chain from your neck
Let go the past as you purge
Free now from everything weighing you down
Open the floodgates and surge with
New found power


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c4LiU1S-iIw

A bit cheesy I admit, but it gives me confidence.

Fuck, I've been stupid.

Sorry if I went full Damaso, but I just needed to vent my frustration.This is my story I haven't told any of my friends.

Wish me luck.

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Re: Revolting Uniting
« Reply #5596 on: 02-10-2014, 12:10:00 »
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Re: Revolting Uniting
« Reply #5597 on: 02-10-2014, 13:10:34 »
I need to get things off my chest.

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Good on you! Stay strong, the force of the computer is strong... I (almost, sometimes I still just waste time) got rid of mine around 2 years ago, after I started at Uni and started going out. Exercise is also a very good idea :)
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Re: Revolting Uniting
« Reply #5598 on: 02-10-2014, 15:10:59 »
Two things come to my mind:

  • Get a small job and actually attend it. A couple of hours per week. While you are billing chocolate for 1.19€, you will surely think about whether that is what you want to do forever in life.
  • Tell your parents that you'd prefer to attend an apprenticeship first. Maybe something related to history. Like becoming a bookbinder (rare). Ask your parents to save the money and to pay your University years later once you feel more safe about your future plans. While you attend work each day for 3 years, you can think about whether that is what you want to do forever in life.
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Re: Revolting Uniting
« Reply #5599 on: 02-10-2014, 16:10:39 »
If you desire some philosophical motivation, consider picking up Marcus Aurelius' Meditations.  It's Stoic philosophy, very good for steeling your spine and combating stress and anxiety.

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Re: Revolting Uniting
« Reply #5600 on: 02-10-2014, 17:10:54 »
Good for you! The wonders of the computer can be compelling and can easily turn into an addiction. Atleast you aren´t in denial and try to work on your problems. There have been some really good tips here already, like getting a job that gets you out of the house, but my tip would be to also get a hobby where you have to socialize with other people. For example try to join a sports team, play chess or something else. Whatever gets you out of the house and gets you to socialize.
When I moved in my own flat in a new town three years ago it was a really nice change. I went out alot more, met new people and made experiences no computer game or cute cat video could ever give me.
I guess it´s really important to see that there are other cool things to see and do besides the virtual world.

Another major point is to get a regular time schedule. Regular events, like lessons, job hours, club meetings etc. keep you from wasting time infront of the screen. I´m sure many of us experience this especially during holidays, when there are no urgent appointments ahead. You feel like you have tons of time each day and "drift" away. That´s all cool for a week or two, but it´s pretty dangerous if it becomes your lifestyle.Also, be honest to your parents. They love you and will hopefully help you.

TL;DR: Find activities that help you form a regular schedule and socialize alot. Mini-jobs, regular attendance of classes, team hobbies like sports or a book/movie club can help you with that and show you that there´s more in life than your computer.
Check out what kind of activities your uni offers, there should be plenty to do. Take up the offer and don´t waste your young life in your cave infront of a screen.

All the best to you!
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Re: Revolting Uniting
« Reply #5601 on: 02-10-2014, 22:10:53 »
Good for you! at this moment you only risk having too many goals. A lot of time when someone wants to change something drastically in his life (a turn around point) he wants to change about everything at once. Keep in mind change (and succes) often comes in small steps. Make sure your goals are realistic and doable (i.e. short term goals - long term goals).
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Re: Revolting Uniting
« Reply #5602 on: 03-10-2014, 19:10:37 »
Today i was watching a porno, and all that was going through my mind was how odd it was that they had exactly the same coffee table as me. I mean, what are the odds?

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Re: Revolting Uniting
« Reply #5603 on: 03-10-2014, 20:10:48 »
What a time to be alive.

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Re: Revolting Uniting
« Reply #5604 on: 04-10-2014, 00:10:34 »
Did you buy the coffee table second hand, Siben? It might be a movie prop!
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Re: Revolting Uniting
« Reply #5605 on: 04-10-2014, 00:10:50 »
Did you buy the coffee table second hand, Siben? It might be a movie prop!

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Re: Revolting Uniting
« Reply #5606 on: 05-10-2014, 23:10:33 »
Beem a while since last good party. Now listening to this track and im almost going through the roof. Flashing images of party people and happy times. Sigh, another 5 days and BOOOOOOOOOM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7B3jIAteuZs

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Re: Revolting Uniting
« Reply #5607 on: 06-10-2014, 11:10:41 »
Hot breakfast, fresh coffee and a brand new episode of Boardwalk empire

Brilliant morning!
-i am fairly sure that if they took porn off the internet, there would only be one website left and it would be called bring back the porn "Perry cox, Scrubs.

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Re: Revolting Uniting
« Reply #5608 on: 06-10-2014, 11:10:28 »
Today i was watching a porno, and all that was going through my mind was how odd it was that they had exactly the same coffee table as me. I mean, what are the odds?
What a time to be alive.
checking these boards more and more rarely. Glad to see that I can still get a smile and a giggle from you guys. This is amazing.
I see were you are trying to reach: "how can a 17 year old kid have such a thinking like this? why doesnt he wants to be like normal teens who whana get rich? and his plan actually makes sense, but is too damn revolutionary and good at the same time than is still doubthfull if it works..." - Damaso

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Re: Revolting Uniting
« Reply #5609 on: 06-10-2014, 23:10:00 »
checking these boards more and more rarely. Glad to see that I can still get a smile and a giggle from you guys. This is amazing.
I blame the lack of Damaso for that. We need to choose someone from our ranks to take on his legacy.
He got banned for our sins. He was not the member FH forums deserved, he was the member we needed.